I keep wondering

I keep wondering

whether it’s

right or wrong

but I keep coming back to

the fact that

it is what it is

and that’s it?

That’s it,

I keep wondering.

we shot to kill

It sucks

it’s burnt

it’s hard to swallow.

I chew the fat

then choke down

bile.

For now

mouthfuls

of blood and oil.

As I spit flesh

it stinks

of sorrow.

A few more bites

just choke

and swallow.

For what it’s worth

we shot to kill

and did.

Walking among Redwoods

I never stood a chance in the landscape of her eyes

that green mountain range overlooking cloudy skies

but I walked a long while to get to where I’ve been

and I’ll walk a little longer regardless of the wind.

Is it better to escape like a dove into the light

or give into the darkness which creeps in from the night?

There’s something in the hills, either way I’m headed down

as I stream into the valley, with the current I am now

free from all the heartache, I barely make a sound

with the roots of the sequoia among the ancient ground.

watching dust

two vessels lay

like the dead

watching dust

disappear

off the ceiling fan

a beacon

There must be something better

than living in this state

like a free floating feather

I must be on my way

it just took me some time

like Jenny on the run

through city lights, a heroine

to forest I have come

to recognize the stars

on a boat far out at sea

floating through the sky

my legs have taken leave,

and behind all of the people

I’ve passed along the way

is a shining light, a ray of hope

a beacon to this day.

an easy night

Heavy rain

overhead,

fisherman stories

with Jack

and friends,

an easy night

to ease

our heads,

seasick sailors

landlocked

again.

a virgin spirit

Take a sip

than another

it’s only tonic

mixed with water

a virgin spirit

just like you ordered

so take your time

and stew, you’re

reinventing you.

Sage advice for Ken

Today

it seems

your world is crumbling

tomorrow

is your chance

to start to rebuild.

Father’s Day 2019

I breathe his breath

his air is mine

so when I cry

his tears remind

me how to love

and where to find

the strength to heal

one day at a time.

hands of men

there will always be

enough hands

to lift a boulder

or make a mess

but may there never be

enough, hands of men

to gently raise

a child