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It wasn’t ever fun
Even when it lasted
There was always hidden
A motive and agenda
Something I couldn’t figure from afar—
I needed microscopic certainty
That I’d have to disappear
In order to remember—
For them to forget—
That either of us had ever existed
I haven’t the words
Nor strength to stand
Any more
Of this illusion
Sealed in spit
And sketched by hand
Our world is done
What courage has man?
I haven’t seen you in a long time, to be frank I’m enjoying the silence.
I can’t commit to the truth it lies, cause it feels kind of like we are dying.
If I made you blue, I never wanted to.
It’s just love and our love never wasn’t.
There’s disappointment in her eyes, as he speaks she echos with silence.
Neither one is good at goodbyes still they always seem to be trying.
I will remember you, if you remember too.
It’s just love and our love never wasn’t, it’s just love and our love never wasn’t.
There’s a melody, in a harmony.
It’s just love and our love never wasn’t.
He sang to her a lullaby, she did all she could to stop crying.
They fell asleep in the moonlight, just two heartstrings played on violin.
Some day you’ll see, in a memory.
It’s just love and our love never wasn’t.
I can see you laughing from
the corner of your smile
And it’s not the kind of laughter that
means hang around a while
And it’s not the kind of laughter that
says let me lend a hand
It’s the kind of smile that
tells you to drop dead—
I can see you laughing from
the corner of your eye
And it’s not the kind of laughter
that is taken by surprise
And it’s not the kind of laughter
that breaks before it bends
It’s the kind of sideways glare
that kills you from within
Cause I can see you laughing
and I hope it serves you well
In corners we’re all suffering
but I’m not laughing now
Do they make you feel less?
Overwhelmed and unimpressed
like being anywhere else would have
you feeling overdressed?
We always know the problem
but never how to solve them.
We offer salutations which
just form another problem—
When you’re left feeling more
like love’s less than a chore,
the answer’s in the subtlety
as subtle as before—
We always play along
like life’s a lonely song.
You’re singing to a choir if
what feels right is wrong.
What’s the point in asking the question
If your voice is already defeated
I’d go blind just trying to see it
You know everyone is trying to beat it—
If there’s pain then that means there’s a reason
If there’s truth then it’s hard to believe in
Still it’s hard not to relive this feeling
Where everyone everyone’s stealing—
It’s like selling your grief for a grievance
Why the hell would you even break even
Doing all we could to deceive them
It’s all wasted time wasting time healing—
It’s like playing pretend dressed in your skin
Or saying the pledge of allegiance
When there’s no one to please or believe in
It only matters as much as you mean it
Well I think that I just fell in love
I’m as sure as the stars up above
It happened here in Sedona
I watch the red rocks and the sun
Paints your skin oh Olive I love
Your warm bright eyes Hallelujah
I think the sun and the moon have aligned
And in a total eclipse we do shine
And when you call me yours I believe you
Now this is true love to complete you
Well I think that I just fell in love
It happened again in Cassadaga
We heard the tires scream help me my god
Then you held his hand call 911
And like an angel you gave him your love
I watched you calm his breath Hallelujah
I think the sun and the moon have aligned
And in a total eclipse we do shine
And when you call me yours I believe you
Now this is true love to complete you
I like to sit, in long
Wakes of silence
And write cowboy songs
For drunks and dreamers
Who know better
And are better—
Who are better off alone.
Sitting in this hotel room, waiting for the sun to rise.
Looking out across Portales, there’s not a single star in the sky.
I don’t know if she’s thinking of me, but I know I’m thinking of her.
All the times we never got it straight, all the times I didn’t put her first.
Sitting in this hotel room, tried but couldn’t fall asleep.
Spent all of my cash on Johnny, cause he’s a better man than me.
I don’t know if she’s thinking of me, but I know I’m thinking of her.
All the times we never got it straight, all the times I didn’t put her first.
It’s a long drive West.
And I’m on my own.
She said do your best.
Know you’re not alone.
Sitting in this hotel room, wondering if I made a mistake.
Gotta find what I’ve been missing, and bring it back to her to keep.
Only in the slightest
Contradictions find us
Taking a piss in the back of a waiting
Rudimentary silence
Little acts of violence
Testing the waters like leaving the bathtub
Full of standing water
Babies left to wander
Dipping our beaks in a pool not so shallow
Now—
Actions without reason
God I’ve got this feeling
Down like the old folks whose tennis balls are wearing out
Obligations find us
Contradictions bind us
Tight like a truckers hitch secured to nothin but
Ourselves if we’re willing
To hold someone who’s willing
To kick the creator for all the stupid shit we’ve been through
Now—
Everybody wants their own way
Standing on clouds there’s no reason to shout out loud
When everybody gets their own way
I can guarantee somebody won’t be pleased (laugh out loud)
