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I don’t really know
Exactly what I am
Perhaps a shadow of my former self
Turned inside out
Back to his former self
Like a Ferris Wheel spins
I can be any focused face in the crowd
Though I don’t know the difference anymore
And we’re too old for carnival games
We were so full of dread
Neglect and forlorn
That it made us invincible
And Oddballs to others
I’m a writer at my worst
Never at my best
In the belly of the beast
I’m boiled like the rest.
So now all we get is tomorrow.
While yesterday’s dreams unravel.
Ticking like a clock are we
ever able to grasp the moment?
Present in ourselves,
though hardly in another.
Tomorrow’s but a shadow
hurrying to catch up.
Life ain’t always about
doing the things you want to do,
more likely than not it’s
doing the things you have to do.
And maybe some cool shit along the way.
I am, it seems
A coward
To my own fate
Except when
A bumper sticker
Tells me different
And not to believe
Everything I think.
There was no hope for us then
We were already too far gone
Gone from where? Neither could tell
But going gone, regardless.
I don’t mean to sound defeated
It just always hurt to try
Knowing there’s no meaning
In waiting out the night,
So I take my lashes willing
Under this starry sky
Knowing there’s no reason
Or pain to justify
All we get
In the end is
Our own
Separate Peace.
The only pleasure that I get now
is from forgetting I exist.
